I’ve seen the progression and I’ve just knowingly let myself slip further into the poor choices abyss.
Back in October i started a weight loss challenge with people from work and since then I’ve GAINED at least 7 pounds. Fact of the matter is, none of my coworkers have seemed that dedicated which in return has enabled me to not care either.
Meh, I’m not one for group challenges. I motivate myself best when I reach a point of horror and disdain for myself. Which I reached this morning.
When I started losing weight after I graduated from college,I weighed 163. At my lowest last March, I was down to 136. When I started my work weight loss thing in October I was 144. Which i actually dealt with because during the course of the year I maintained a 20 pound weight loss.
And then…. November happened and I ballooned out. I just stopped caring. I went to California early November and I actually LOST 5 pounds. Then holidays came and wow…
Anyway here is the recent wakeup call: I weighed in last week…. 157. Granted that was after a weekend of drinking excessively and eating horribly so I gained 5 pounds just in a week. BUT STILL… my highest weight was 163, only 6 pounds higher than what I weighed in as last week!!!!! That’s fucking awful.
So, I’m pretty much starting over again… great. No one to blame but myself, so not going to bother berating myself. I’ll remain hopeful in the fact that I’ve lost plenty of weight while starting thks heavy before. Just going to take a lot of work.
I’ve been wearing skirts a ton to work so it’s a lot harder to determine how big you’ve really gotten because skirts stretch and don’t individually wrap around your legs. So, this morning it’s FREEZING and I didn’t feel like looking cute. Attempted to put on a pair of dress pants that fit PERFECTLY in October (size 8) and I could hardly button/ zip them. Didn’t want to be miserable all day so I switched to an older pair that I absolutely hate. They’re at least a size 13 and they got in the legs so awkwardly and I just hate them… Put them on and they’re SNUG.
JUST KILL ME.
Anyway, back to rigidly tracking my food until I will myself to get to the gym. Chicago weather has been treacherous lately and the last thing I want to do after a full work day is go to the gym when it’s -5 degrees out. Going to really try to get there at least twice this week.
Ugh I suck.
Just a little info
I’ve been back at the gym and kicking ass. I’ve been taking pictures of my overview on every machine after I’m done and I keep meaning to post them to this blog so I can keep up with my stats but I am so busy lately that I’m lucky I have the time to work out.
But I’m keeping at it!